how. how do you navigate this world without being competitive?

be the bigger person?

i feel so goddamn competitive. some of it stems from me feeling insecure about myself as a whole. my looks, my speaking abilities, my ideas. i am not confident putting myself out there. especially when i don't know how others feel about me. i develop a confidence over time, a seniority - but here at my new job, i feel like a fish out of water. surrounded by perfectly coiffed ladies, i feel like a slob. with other moms i feel like a little girl. i am 40 and yet i feel like i come off as a young, slightly discombobulated person.

and yet, i can be so utterly competitive and i hate it. wanting to brag, wanting to showcase on social media. how can i just be supportive and humble? where is the balance? i want to be comfortable in my own skin, but also open and supportive, especially to other women.