the pros and the cons.

pros:
good money
flexible hours
no overtime

cons:
manage a big group
lots of politics
lots of broken things
don't care about this business

i'm trapped. if i want to live in our neighborhood, i need to continue making what i make now. if i stay at this job, i need to start doing impressive shit. i'm getting by decently but this low radar thing isn't going to last much longer. if i find a new job, i'll probably need to work crazy hours to prove myself and earn my privileges. but if i could find a job that allows me flex time and is rewarding, that would be ideal.

do i even want to work past the politics? how do i do that?

do i take on more work and more responsibility at a job i dislike, with a team i am tired of, in a career i don't care for? with no promotion or raise? sounds like a no-brainer.

they brainwash you into thinking this is an amazing opportunity to grow and stretch yourself. what does it get me? a potential promotion NEXT YEAR, a big raise NEXT YEAR, more stress, possible overtime and weekend work, less time with my son, more time spent doing soul-sucking bullshit. sounds like a no-brainer.

why am i even considering this? only because our bills are high, we have a child to support, we live in this expensive town.

what would i rather do? if money wasn't a concern?
- blogger SAHM
- community work
- music-related work
- health & fitness-related work

i really just want to write and get paid for it. and i want to write my own blog. something related to generosity, wellness, mindful living, zen, balancing it all in a city.