simplifying

what is even the point of participating in the corporate world? well, two main things:
- good income to support myself and my family in an expensive region
- health insurance

lately, what i enjoy most is just being at home. we have a dishwasher and a washer/dryer for god's sake, and i'm making the most of them. this new place is much bigger and more comfy for us. though i do wonder how we'll feel once we are three - will it quickly become small again? do we just have too much stuff?

i waver between wanting to live simply and wanting to soak in as much life and world as possible. i have intentions of recording music and reading tons of books, and participating in community activities. but is there anything wrong with just loving to spend time with my husband and allow my busy and nurturing body to rest on the couch? i love just walking to the park. going to the organic grocery store and perusing the shelves. i walk slowly now so even short jaunts feel full and satisfying. last week, i finished a book while sitting in the park - it was so pleasant.

there's tons of organizing to do. that's fine, but i am searching for a better balance. a truer balance of simple and intricate. richly intricate, not too tightly woven but using the most genuine threads. i am probably overthinking things and feeling like i need to be something that i am not. i know how to just be - so just be without worrying about it. if there is already happiness, then don't go looking for it.