sometimes the workplace feels like a holding cell, a trap. i try to remind myself over and over that it is not; that life continues at work; that i shouldn't place so much a separation between work and life. i find solace in the humanity at work - chumming around with my team, enjoying an amazing view from our windows, delighting in free food like a young child. however, what it seems to come down to at every place i've worked at, is this: i would rather be somewhere else.
i might even sometimes enjoy the work i am doing, but even so: i would rather be cultivating my hobbies and spending time with loved ones. i wish i could spend all my time doing those things.
and aside from integrating with the reality of the workplace, finding humanity and joy - i also find escape. the interwebs, email, facebook checks on my iphone, and of course instant messenger. also there is a strange comfort in the solitude of my cubicle, or sometimes a huddle room. is it wrong to cling to escape? am i actually tearing down the possibility to embrace my workday?
what i want to do is infuse my deep passion about wellness and mindfulness into the work that i do and the interactions i have. i wish to spread my philosophies about these things. to help others love their day and appreciate life even when they are "stuck" here. to find opportunities in my day rather than longing for it to end.
i need to truly embody this before i can expect to make a direct impact on others.
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