truthfully, i can surf the web for hours upon hours everyday. i crave knowledge, i want to know so many things. there are too many things available at our fingertips now - things that don't concern me, will never help me. yet information is something i want to consume so constantly. i get this same feeling in bookstores and libraries - marveling at the sheer enormity of knowledge in front of me. but there is something so much more grand about a library of course - the history, the aged tomes in their respective spaces, librarians who can guide you. the internet on the other hand is like endless fields, rolling plains, you can get sucked in everywhere and anywhere.

you feel this obligation to know about news. world news, local news, tech news, trends, sensationalism, pop culture. so much to keep up with. i also want to wikipedia everything under the sun - new actors, check up on actors i've read up on many times, tv show plots. yesterday i read the entire synopsis of the HIMYM series during my commute, all the way up to the series finale. i sometimes don't mind finding out the ending like that, but i was left with a feeling of "i want to watch the series just so i can experience that ending organically." does it really matter?

life is so short, and we fill it with so much filler. the norm is so much filler. and expensive gadgets. and expensive lifestyle. here i am with my numerous laptops, iphones, tablets, drinking a $5 coffee. ridick to the say the least.

i long to write for others, to others. write so that people can enjoy the melody of my words. that is what i enjoy. i enjoy affirmation. is that vain or sad? i'm not much of a motivational speaker but i have motivations that i try to convey, with the written word. got to get back to that.

i'm somewhat inspired by my newfound interest in running in the morning. and also i felt like strumming the guitar last night. things will surprise you, just like the little guy sleeping without the need for milk.