i miss the baby so much sometimes, while i'm at work. i try to eat in the last few minutes before i go to work in the morning and i stare at his pictures in the privacy of the mommy room. and yet, i find myself craving old comforts when i am home with him. he's a handful. my old life is gone. he's worth it, but i do miss some things.
- roaming around manhattan in the summertime, drinking dizzying cocktails in the warm night
- brooklyn abuzz in the summer, eating outdoors in cobble hill restaurants
- bicycling through brooklyn heights and dumbo
- spontaneous shopping sprees
- cooking to my heart's content
- watching movies
i don't want to feel stuck at all, that's not what having a baby is supposed to do. instead i need to remember that i want to give this baby the best days that i can, and i want to love him and play with him and show him the world. i shouldn't be afraid to do what i must in order to find that parenting/ life balance. today, i got a pedicure and did some shopping. i always try to sneak in some chores.
he's napping now, bless his soul. i always want him to nap. is that bad? there's so much to do around the house. i have a hard time just letting the house get messy knowing that we're raising our baby in a messy house. got to wash his sheets, sterilize bottles, etc.
i don't want to neglect myself either though. i need to resume healthy eating and find some time to exercise. outdoor yoga sounds about right to me.
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